Dear God it’s been a while. I know it’s my fault. I hid when I backslid. I guess it’s like a program in us. I mean ain’t it funny Adam and Eve did the same thing.
Yet the most perplexing thing is you came knocking once more. You just never give up do you? I’m not complaining.

I feel lucky that no matter how many times I fall you’re ever there to pick me up. You know you said forgive 70*7.

It scares me. Does that mean 490 times? I’ll admit. I don’t really understand this because it feels like I’ve been on a roll for what seems like eternity. I mean haven’t I surpassed 490? I am not proud of this but I am scared. I try not to sin but then sometimes subconsciously I lie then it hits me after that I did and it scares me that one day you may not be there to pick me up. I don’t want to be alone. Not away from you at least because I feel you in my chest spilling happiness. Mending my soul leaving it forever smiling.

Like a father you have been patient. You watch me sin but expect me to learn from my choices and if I’m being honest pain is a damn good teacher but you knew that. That’s why you didn’t stop me from going down the dark road. You wanted me to learn from the scares and the things that go boom at night that I desperately wanted to be a part of. Peer pressure am I right. Then at the end of the road you stood patiently awaiting me, your prodigal son. I guess that’s why they say there’s a light at the end of the tunnel.

I can never be good enough. Not for the world, nor for your grace but you don’t need me to be good enough. You love me for who I am.. Which is why when I’m down you come to mind. When I’m happy I raise my voice.

Even in between I still look to you. You are my compass. For in this life we learn and evolve. We change constantly. Lose people, Lose love, We lose ourselves, Our minds, but even when all is lost. You’re still our compass. You’ve always been the North point. In the end you are hope when we have none. You are peace when we need it most.

You are life when we are on the edge. You provide when we have none. You are first and last. Our friend and master. You are that which we cannot see. You are that which we feel and believe. You are will un faulted. For you are I am.

Dos and Don’t of Valentines Day

The month of love has finally arrived and as always ladies, some of you are about to be disappointed big time.

Some, well the lucky few who actually get more than they expected. Well let’s just say alot of people envy you.

So here are some does and don’t for Valentine’s day.

First things first, The Venue. Guys, please do not take a lady out to a fast food joint that she probably goes to daily. I don’t care how broke you are.

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It is cheaper to make her a nice home cooked meal and I don’t know. Set up some candles set the mood. Fast food restaurant or places you know she frequents are a no go zone. Try something different. Take her for a picnic at night or a weekend away to a peaceful place. Try something out of the box.

Ladies on the other hand try lower your expectations. You might end up missing out on an amazing night because you’re hung up on a trip to Fiji.


The second thing you need to remember is roses aren’t the only kind of flowers out there. I mean we have red carnations which are cheaper by the way, orchids. They last longer than roses and damn do they scream exotic. My personal favorite would be peonies. They have this fairytale feel to them.

For the ladies. Don’t expect him to make a big deal out of Valentine’s day like you. Men don’t tend to be all mushy and sentimental about this holiday. I mean I get it. Do we actually treat our men for Valentines day? Hell if he got a PS 5 on the 14th. Valentine would probably be one of his favorite holidays. I get it’s a ladies holiday but don’t make it all about you. Compromise.

Next thing you need to know is Valentines day comes with goodies. Sexy lingeries, cute undies. I mean you don’t need a man to buy these things. Just get one for yourself. Feel sexy.

Take care of what you eat. Things like garlic and onions can leave your mouth smelling. It ruins the mood. He probably won’t lean in for a kiss at the end of the day.

Ofcourse the biggest mistake any guy could make is to forget about the holiday. Plan ahead. Look for substitutes of packed restaurants. Make an early reservation. Oh and don’t forget, you might not be together on that day but that doesn’t mean you can’t have a belated Valentine.

Lastly, dress up. Feel sexy. Go out and make other men jealous. A sexy woman is confident. You’re a mood girl. Don’t sit around sulking because you are all alone. Don’t spend the night on that sofa watching chick flicks or Hallmark movies. Heck go live them.

Hit him with your car and fall in love. I mean it’s Valentines. Anything can happen. Cupid is granting wishes. ♥️